365 days of Joy

So I’m going back to New York

Yup.

Didn’t think it’d actually happen though.

It started with the rumors of Darren taking on a role on Broadway (How to Succeed). 10 minutes after the first article came out I already found myself trying to find a way to go, which at the time seemed impossible. I can’t exactly afford it at the moment (more on that later) and I was worried about work. I’m supposed to start a full time job soon and I don’t know if when I take on a job, I’ll be able to get a week off in January. Anyway, I kind of let the idea go cause it was still a rumor at that point.

Then a week later the official announcement came. Well, okay. There I was again, hating myself for living in fucking Narnia. Seriously though, I am so moving as soon as I get the chance. I was still trying to figure something out & I kinda talked about it to my mom, not having mentioned Darren or the musical and she didn’t really respond. The next day I was like, ‘Yknow what, I’m gonna try & make this happen.’ There’s still the insecurity when it comes to a job, but I’ll just deal with it along the way. I talked about it again with my mom and, okay see, this is one of the reasons why I love my mom. She knows what’s it like to be a fangirl, so she supported my idea. I asked her to go with me but she wasn’t up for it. Not too much later she gave me her blessing anyway, I was allowed to go but not by myself. I somehow also convinced her to lend me the money for the trip. I couldn’t be more happier!

I’m going with a lovely girl named Liesbeth, a fellow Jonas Brothers fan whom I met over the internet. We’re going to be in NYC January 19th till the 24th and we’re seeing How To Succeed on the 22nd which is Darren’s closing night. I’m so excited, oh my gosh. I booked tickets to the show 30 minutes after I got a ‘yes’ from Liesbeth earlier this week, and we booked a hotel & flight today.

I’m going back to NYC.

Somone hold me. Is this really happening?

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Glee Live & meeting Darren!

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So I want to start this off by saying how incredible these past few days have been.. Everyone knows I have a bit of an obsession with Glee & Darren and I was over the moon excited to go to London to see the concert. 

Also, let me tell you guys that I’m usually never lucky. Never, ever.

So we got to London on the 28th and were strolling down  the Strand for a bit when I realized something looked familiar.. I was staying at the Strand Palace hotel and across the street is the Savoy Hotel, a big ass fancy place. I saw a lot of people waiting outside so me and my mom went over to see what the fuss was about, and that’s when I realized this was the place Darren had gone out a day earlier signing autographs for fans (I saw the video on tumblr the night before I left). I freaked out. Seriously, the glee cast was staying acrros the street from me! 

Anyway, I didn’t think I’d get to meet anyone there because well, I was with my mom and I couldn’t exactly abandon her and wait outside their hotel all day, now could I? I wanted to, lol, but I couldn’t do that to my mom..  so yeah. The next day when we left our hotel we decided to just head over there for like a minute.. One minute turned into about ten and then the people who were waiting there started screaming and freaking out. Of ALL PEOPLE, off all the cast members who were staying there, Darren fucking Criss comes out and gets into a taxi. Now, I have to say that I think a lot of the other cast members passed us too, but I’m pretty sure they were in cars with tinted windows. There were alot of them coming out all at once so I think a lot of the cast went out in those.. But anyway back to Darren. Of ALL people, my favorite guy comes out and I am like freaking out. I never even imagined I’d end up seeing anyone there! When he got to us he rolled his window down so he could say hi really quick and wave at the fans.. I was on the end of the line, kinda, so when he drove by me he noticed and pointed at my pink sunnies, gave me a thumbs up and then waved at me before the taxi drove off completely. I was freaking out. HOLY CRAP DID THAT JUST HAPPEN. I was like “I don’t care if he’s not at the m&g tomorrow. I just saw him here and he waved at me and oh my god nothing can ruin my mood now”.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sufEFVHxzgc&feature=related 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5xcHNwn3Zs8 

I’m not in these or neither did I film them but this is from when he drove by!

We ended up waiting there for another hour but nobody came out. I went back the next morning around the same time but no so luck. Can I also point out that there were so many Starkids there?! Oh my gosh! I met this lovely girl who I talked to for a while, but I can safely say that 75% of the people waiting were there for Darren/were Starkids. Hell to the yess! 

Alright, on to the concert. We got to the venue, checked into the pre party, got our goodie bag (which had a binder, slushie cup, program and a warblers tie), listened to Glee music and did a quiz. I knew 8 out of 10 question and looked up the other two on the internet really quick, lol. I ended up tying first place with 5 other teams xD Then the people with M&G passes were asked to get together and we were led to this room that had a small stage. Now, ofcourse I really wanted to meet Darren. He’s my favorite, but I’d told myself not to get my hopes up too much. I knew he had already done a lot of M&G’s and already did 2 or 3 in London so I wasn’t counting on it. Anyway, we were queued along the wall and from where I was standing I had a good view of this door where I assumed the cast was waiting behind to come out. The door went open a little bit and I saw a quick flash of dark curls and I was like OMG NO WAY. no. freaking. way. Then the door opened completely and yep.. Darren walked out. Holy crap I freaked out so so bad. Everyone in the room went oooh & aaaah! when he and Harry Shum walked out. I just couldn’t believe he was actually there, oh my gosh. It’s so surreal to actually see him up there, I can’t put it to words.. it was weird and amazing at the same time. 

Now, I’m not gonna lie. The meet and greet was pretty rushed.. I was told to expect it and I had prepared myself for it so overall I didn’t mind that much. I was too starstruck to have had a decent conversation anyway! I walked up to Harry first, shook his hand and introduced myself. He was really nice but now that I look back on it I’m sad I didn’t say anything else to Harry. He’s such a lovely guy but I think I was bit too excited about Darren who was just standing there. So I quickly  moved over to Darren and introduced myself as well. He smiled and replied with “Oh hi Joy!”. Y’know, in that cute, exciting voice he does? haha. He noticed my sunglasses and said “Oh man I’m loving your pink shades! Awesome!” and I was like AFHJKHAKL oh my gosh. Then we had to pose for out picture, he had his hand around my waist the entire time (AFGHJAHLAKJLA). Then security was already urging us to get of the stage but I stayed on it for a little while longer so I could tell him I’m going to one of his shows the next week and he got this big grin on his face and said “Oh, SWEET man! Thanks so much! See you there!”.

I swear, even if it was rushed, they were the sweetest and so, so nice. It was incredible. When I grabbed my bags and went outside, I felt like crying.. good crying though. I was so excited and overwhelmed, it’s hard to put it to words.. 

The picture: (my mom didn’t want her picture on the internet so I had to cut her & Harry out. If you want to see the whole thing, shoot me a message!)

*Swooooooooon*

On to the actual concert! We had the most amazing seats ever! I didn’t know were my seats were until I actually got there.. As if we weren’t lucky enough to have seen/met Darren twice in 2 days, I also ended up getting the exact seats I wanted! We were in Pit B (the right one) on the second row, right next to the catwalk. I freaked out. again. From where we were sitting, we saw the cast get on and off the stage a lot. They were really interactive with us and waved a lot :)

The show itself was amazing, so, so amazing. Security was super strict though, they wouldn’t let us record anything so I took a lot of pictures instead. I was screaming and jumping up and down and singing along on the top of my lungs.

I even got to touch Chris’ hand during I Want To Hold Your Hand! (even though security tried to keep me away, I was like screw you! Chris is the one reaching out to us so why wouldn’t I be allowed to shake his hand? So I reached over anyway.) It only lasted 2 seconds before the security guy rudely pushed me back to my seat though. BUT STILL. Chris was so adorable during the song and so nice to try to reach as many people as possible.

I could go over how amazing each and every one of them were and go over the songs one by one but it would take me too long.. They were so amazing and oh gosh I can’t believe it’s over already.. I had the best time.

Naya was sick, but to be honest, I didn’t actually notice her missing until Amber said it herself. She still performed the duet by herself, which she killed btw. Jenna also came out to sing True Colors (which was azmzing!) to make up for missing Naya’s solo, Valerie.

Darren was fantastic. Just fantasic, amazing, no words can describe my love for this man. I just can’t. I didn’t get to see much of him during the Warblers set because they started out on the small stage, and once they got us he kept moving around a lot, but I didn’t mind. I was so pumped and full of energy I just kept jumping up and down and singing along. I got to see plenty more of him when he joined for the group numbers! (The skit was pretty hilarious.. So much happened, I can’t even begin to describe it but I LOVED it!). Darren also came out during Safety Dance and him & Riker were in front of mt the entire. fucking. time. I swear those guys were being so silly and cute, oh my gosh. I managed to snap this fucking adorable picture of Darren that ‘ll post tomorrow (along with the rest of my pictures!)

And that’s about it.. I guess! I just had the most amazing time, and all these incredible things happened to me that I thought never would. OH! Also, Joe Jonas ended up staying at the Savoy Hotel across the street, so for all I know he was in one of those cars with tinted windows as well and drove by me.. I’m gonna go die now, k?

Best week ever. 

And to top it all off, I get to see darren’s lovely face again in just 3 days. #omg

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I had the best week EVER

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Let’s recap:

• I get to London & find out the Glee cast is staying at the hotel across the street from me.
• I saw Darren leave his hotel on the 29th. He gave me a thumbs up and waved at me after he noticed & pointed at my pink sunnies
• I honestly thought it couldn’t and/or wouldn’t get any better than that
• Then, the day of Glee Live I went to the M&G room, not knowing who was going to be there. Off all the cast who could have done the M&G on the 30th, it was Darren. OFF ALL PEOPLE, MY FAVORITE GUY WAS THERE. I met Darren Criss. Life = complete.
• I didn’t know where my actual seats were going to be until I got to the O2. Turns out they’d given me the exact seats I had hoped for; second row right NEXT to the catwalk.
• Chris Colfer waved at me during I Want To Hold Your Hand and then seconds later he ACTUALLY HELD MY HAND. Total agghfghjkkkhhj moment.
• Darren and Riker dancing right in front of me during Safety Dance and being all sorts of adorable
• Glee Live was fucking amazing. What. A. Show.
• Then there was the show at the Borderline on the 5th
• I met SO MANY lovely people while queuing, you have no idea.
• I lost track of how many times we sang Going Back to Hogwarts & Granger Danger
• I swear, the queuing was almost as fun as the actual show
• I WAS SO FUCKING CLOSE TO THE FRONT OMG, we were right in front of Darren
• Darren is one flawless human being
• I wish I could hear him sing live all the time
• JOE WALKER WAS THERE. 
• JOE WALKER WAS THERE.
• JOE WALKER WAS THERE. 
• and I’m probably forgetting tons of stuff but omg.

I swear, usually I’m one of the unluckiest people you will ever meet but somehow I ended up seeing Darren 4 times in one week. Amazing, I have no words.

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I sometimes forget I have a personal blog.

I’m always so caught up in posting on my other tumblelogs that I forget to write about me every now and then.. My last post was like what, 2 months ago? Anyway!

Let me tell you guys a bit about what’s been going on in my life lately.. School has been good! I can’t believe that in less then 2 months I’ll be done with it for good, it is SO surreal, especially now with the moment coming closer and closer each week. I’m currently on spring break and when I return to school I have about 4 or 5 weeks of classes left. After that I have about 3 very important presentations which I’m already so nervous about, you can’t even imagine. There’s still so much work I have to do though, I told myself I would spend this week doing a lot of schoolwork, yet here I am not even having opened photoshop or illustrator once since last week. I really need to get my act together and get to work because I know I’ll be having deadline issues. What can I say..  that’s just me. Classes have been really enjoyable this year, something that I didn’t really expect. I got to work on a lot of cool projects this year, some of which you see here: http://joyddesign.tumblr.com. 

I’m currently going through a major Glee fan phase, Idk how that happened (it might have something to do with a certain someone coming on the show, but y’know.. idk). It’s funny, because when I originally saw the pilot way back in june (2?) years ago, I didn’t think it would become this big of a deal to me. When I like a fandom, I tend to go through phases where I’m a lot more crazy than usual. Kind of what’s happening with Glee right now. I went through a bit of a crazy phase during season one when the back 9 episodes aired, and thankfully the obsession calmed down over the summer hiatus. But boy, when Darren Criss came on the show it hit me hard. Again. 

This resulted in me deciding to go to Glee Live, and at first I wasn’t even planning on going! Way back when it was first announced I asked my brother if he would want to go with me but he didn’t want to so that was that.. Also, mom and I had plans to go to Los Angeles in June, so when my friends asked me if I wanted to go with them to see Glee, I declined. 2 trips on such short amount of time, I could simply not afford. Anyway, for various reasons, we had to call or USA trip off so that left me with a bit of a sad feeling that I didn’t have anything to look forward to anymore.. And then my friends kept talking about Glee and I subconsciously became a bit jealous, I think? Anyway, I made my mom watch Glee when it finally started airing here and we started talking about how they would be touring but as always, the nearest place they would be performing is London, so we didn’t really look too  far into it. That was until I became madly obsessed with Darren Criss and Blaine/Kurt. All of a sudden I felt miserable that they would be SO close and I’d have to miss seeing them. I then brought the subject up again and it kinda rolled on from there, before we realized it we were booking tickets to see Glee Live online et voila, here we are.

We’ve got uh-may-zing seats, somwhere in the first 3 rows, which is insane. The thing is, when we decided to go, most of the good seats were sold out already and we didn’t want spend a lot of money on hotels & transportation to end up having a crappy view at the O2 (which is HUGE), so we decided to purchase VIP tickets! Not only do these come with a pre-party and goodies and the amazing seats, there’s also a freaking meet and greet included! Excuse me while I pass out, k? (though the M&G isn’t what got us buy those tickets. My mom has a lot of trouble with her eyes and sight, she can’t even read street signs while outside, so it was the first 3 rows deal that sealed the deal for us). Anyway, I’m already freaking out about the M&G. Okay, so maybe I don’t get to meet everyone (cast members vary each show) but still, those guys are amazing and I’m truly inspired by each and every single person on that show. It’s just that I have this fear that I’m going to make a total fool of myself while up there.. I mean, I don’t speak english all that well. I can sort of write and understand it, but when it comes to speaking the language, I have no experience whatsoever. I don’t want to just go up there and shake whoever is there’s hand, smile and take a picture, I want to be able to make a bit of conversation and I’m so afraid I’ll be freaking out so much that I’ll completely forget all the english I know. GAH! Also, like I said, I don’t know who’s going to at the M&G but I swear if it turns out be Darren, I AM GOING TO FLIP. It’s an understatement that I won’t even know what to do with myself. 

Oh god, imagine this.. if I’m already freaking out THIS bad, 2 months before, about the m&g, I can’t even imagine how I would be feeling if I ever got to meet the Jonas Brothers. I think I would just die then and there.

Also, my Darren Criss obsession made me fall in love with the Harry Potter fandom all over again, it’s so great. Especially with the last movie coming out soon, it’s going to be amazing. Harry Potter was the first fandom I ever was a part of, so so so many years ago when I first started reading the books (I have to thank JK Rowling for making me fall in love with reading) and I can’t believe that with the last movie coming out, there’s not really anything left to look forward to in this fandom. Or is there?

Anyway! My lovely best friend in the whole word, Jasmijn, turned 21 this week! I’ve known her for about 6-7 years now? I don’t even remember. We met through a mutual friend back in high school. I went over to her place on tuesday and we had a Glee (read: Darren) marathon! It was so much fun! The next day, her actual birthday we headed to a theme park with some of her friends and we had a blast! We spent the day singing A Very Potter Musical songs, making Glee references, having inside jokes, trying to turn the guys into gleeks, getting our Starkid on while on a rollercoaster, and so much more. I think it’s safe to say her 21st birthday was a huge succes. Happy birthday girl! You’re now officially allowed to drink and gamble when you’re in the USA!

What else.. uhm. There’s work and stuff at home, but I won’t get into that right now. Oh, my brother recently turned 18 years old. WHEN DID HE GET THIS OLD. He’s supposed to be my little kid brother, aside from the fact that he’s actually taller than me. The kid only just turned 18 but I seriously lost count of the amount of girlfriends he’s had, I can’t even begin to explain. I don’t know how we are even related.. I mean, here I am, 20 years old, forever boyfriend-less and yet he’s got another girl every month. We can’t be family!

On a side note: 3 months and 5 days till I’ll be turning 21. I can’t believe how fast the year went by! It’s insane.. I really want to do something special, because well.. 21 is supposed to be a big one (even though I’m already officially an adult and I already get to drink and drive so it doesn’t really change anything) but I never had a ‘special’ birthday.. I wish I could have my amazing friends from all over the world fly in and join me.. now wouldn’t that be something? oh, also, if someone can get me Darren criss with a pretty pink bow tie wrapped around his neck for my birthday, I will love you forever. Or even better; a Jonas brother.. Just sayin’.

That’s about it I guess, If you made it this far through my ramblings, well. I love you. Simple as that.

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As for personal things, I turned 20 on july 20th. The big 2-0. No longer a teen! I went out for dinner and a movie, not really a big deal.. My birthdays never are. One day I’d wish to have someone throw me an over-the-top-suprise party, but then I remember I only have 3 friends so it wouldn’t really work out.

Something that really changed my life is the fact that I finally decided to go on a diet. I started eating healthy (only that, no excercise!) in april, I think? And lost 40lbs/20kg since. I don’t know why I finally made that descision, I’ve always wanted to lose weight but no diet ever had effect on the long term..  most of those times people were pushing me, it wasn’t my decision to diet but this time it was! You have to 100 % want it yourself and I’m glad I reached that point, better later than never. It made me feel a lot better about myself, I actually felt confident for the first time in a very long time.

Me feeling more confident resulted in having a serious crush this summer. It didn’t work out though, ah well. My summer was amazing, I wouldn’t change a thing about it.

But it went downhill after the summer to be honest, even though I still feel rather confident, things that happened at home messed with my head. My dad has been unemployed for over 4 months now, he’s 51 so it’s not easy for him to find a job. My mom doesn’t work either so at the moment there’s no income. There’s just so much drama attached, my parents fight all the time, and it resulted in me being kind of.. depressed? 

I can only hope in the new year things will be settling down a bit, and I also hope to persue working on my confidence and self-esteem. I still have a very long way to go.. I realize that. But every step, even the smallest one, is one in the right direction.

Oh, and in 2011 I would like to fall in love, okay? Thanks.

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